May 2012
18 posts
May 23rd
96 notes
WatchWatch
The amount of happy I am right now is hard to describe. Will & Natalie being in this makes me giddy inside!!! 
May 23rd
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I’m so scared I’m never going to live abroad again. All traveling I’ve done in my life has led up to this point: Costa Rica, Italy, India, the Galapagos, Ecuador…has all been leading up to this. Each an experience that has brought me here, to living abroad for half a year of my life.  Leaving France is horridly bittersweet. Maybe even the most bittersweet feeling...
May 19th
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A girl Anna who I just in the past couple of weeks have known, posted this in her blog. It is amazingly well written first of all, but more importantly it does the task of summarizing my experience here better than anything I could ever attempt to write. So Santé, Grenoble. Santé France. Santé to the next chapter in my life.  “How do I describe, exactly, how life here is? I can give you...
May 15th
“I hope you had a wonderful Mother’s Day! I spoke with Lisa intermittently and she was very reminiscent of the past. Growing up you two may not have always seen eye to eye, but at the end of the day, she adores you and is thankful for everything you have sacrificed for her. Now, if she can be half the mother, and hero, you have been for her, I think she will be able to comfortably rest...
May 14th
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May 13th
Culture Shock
My roommate Sabreen and her friend Mariana went to Paris for the weekend. They’re traumatized, quite frankly. They described in awestruck and slightly terrified tones their weekend—full of gays and beggars and brashness and what Mariana described as “you call that fashion?!” It’s kind of adorable, listening to their complete and total dumbfounded-ness. Neither one of...
May 13th
NYAH NYAH NYAH NYAH NYAH NYAH
I HAAAAAAVE A BOOOOOOYFRIEEEEEEND 
May 11th
May 10th
Realizations
In the past I’ve had a hard time figuring out how to deal with Rusty and I’s emotions. It’s one thing to gauge how someone reacts to things, it’s an entirely different thing to put that person’s reactions with yours and adapt to make them compatible.  Rusty and I are both extremely emotional people, and we deal with our emotions in shockingly similar ways. We shut...
May 10th
May 9th
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I can’t eat. I can’t sleep. I can’t do anything, except pray and pray that my life isn’t over.  But I think it is. I’m terrified. I’m so so scared. All I want is to be home in his arms.  And I thought everything was going so perfectly, too. 
May 8th
I have ruined my own life. 
May 8th
Wut
the hell is happening in Texas. The following people have contacted me with the following information:  Daxon: “hey i need to talk to you now. hopefully when i wake. thanks.” Amanda: “Laura is literally the shittiest friend ever. We hate her now. Just to catch you up.” And only God knows whether Rusty is alive or not… 
May 6th
it’s really nice when that little voice kicks in and tells your mind to shut the hell up. 
May 5th
May 4th
WatchWatch
HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHA  sillyjews: THIS VIDEO OMG I LOVE IT SO MUCH 
May 4th
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It’s frustrating not being able to read you. Especially because you think I can so well. 
May 3rd
April 2012
22 posts
“Clear mind. Full heart.”
– Trusty 
Apr 30th
Ups
The past week or so has been full of promise. I feel healthy. We feel healthy. I’m coming to the realization that this time might be incredibly good for us. I know what I want (still him…obviously) but I know what I expect, too. I know what he wants and what he expects. The amount of learning I’m doing is incredible. I feel so connected and in sync with him.  That being said, I...
Apr 30th
Apr 27th
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Reconsider  →
Apr 27th
I need to go home. To my home, which is you. Back home so we can fix this. 
Apr 27th
“I couldn’t imagine not being able to talk to you or seeing you when you...”
– Thank you, God. Thank you. 
Apr 26th
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One of my little swimmers messaged me through her sister’s facebook account with this after she found out I wasn’t coming back to coach this summer: I’ve been looking forward to see you all year and have been thinking about you all during the Starr test thinking its one test closer to seeing you this swim year hopefully with love -Em
Apr 25th
Today my nightmares traded themselves in for daymares. Woke up earlier than usual, and have felt nauseous ever since. I almost prefer the nightmares, really. The daymares are much worse—dreaming about reunions that will never happen, imagining these sick fantasies about us living happily ever after in DC, Houston, Singapore. Him running back to me saying “This was such a mistake,...
Apr 23rd
Apr 22nd
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The Things We Said Today →
Came on my shuffle today. Hours and hours ago, and I changed it as quickly as I could.  And here I am now, crying on my bed 10 hours later about it.
Apr 22nd
Apr 22nd
325 notes
“Nous ne chercherons pas entre les lignes où le cœur a battu, où on a...”
–  Un Nègre à Paris, Barnard B. Dadié
Apr 22nd
I’d be doing fairly well all things considered, if it weren’t for waking up at 7:30 every day since the only boy I’ve ever felt a genuine connection with chose short term pleasure over me, and the brutal, viciously heartbreaking dreams I have once I fall back asleep.  It’s odd, truly. During the day I feel sad, yes, but so far I’ve been good. Removing expectations....
Apr 22nd
Mother knows best
Talking to your momma is the single best thing ever. Clear head on straight shoulders.
Apr 18th
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we didn’t even make it to number three on the timeline 
Apr 18th
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Apr 3rd
Just went on a decorating spree. It was therapeutic as fuuuuuck.  
Apr 3rd
Apr 2nd
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Apr 2nd
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March 2012
10 posts
Mar 29th
Mar 23rd
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Mar 21st
86 notes
Falling apart in Grenoble without the boyfriend. 
Mar 19th
Mar 16th
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Mar 12th
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Mar 11th
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Compliments
Last night Alan told me I’m the only blonde he’s ever met who hasn’t fulfilled the “dumb blonde” stereotype. “I’ve never met a chick who just spews so much politics and history before.” Compliments usually bother me, but I am so flattered. 
Mar 11th
Mar 4th
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Mar 4th
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